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Jesus is Enough

Jesus is Enough

Today is the anniversary of my dad meeting Jesus face to face. What an impossibly glorious thought of what this past year must have been like for my dad as he worshipped his creator in his new and perfectly whole body, now living in paradise. My heart is overjoyed at the thought of my amazing earthly father residing with my all powerful and perfectly holy Heavenly Father. I find myself longing to be in such company, along with the angels and all those that have gone on before us to their eternal glory worshipping the one true Creator.

Life if full of ups and downs, highs and lows. It just is. Everyone will face moments of absolute joy, finding delight in beautiful moments gifted to us by God, but there will also be devastating set backs and heartache to endure.

I have experienced both. Joy and heartache, delight and devastation. Jesus is in them both. His presence should not be taken for granted, lost or forgotten in either circumstance, good or bad.

As I’ve wrestled with my faith the past couple of years I am profoundly strengthened and encouraged because of the wrestle. I’ve been embarrassed and felt ashamed when my reality was one of incredible doubt and endless questions. When I’ve wavered and asked God the tough questions, God was not mad at me. He did not get offended or flee from me. He showed me absolute mercy and grace when my foundation seemed to be crumbling.

In a purely miraculous way, my faith was being restored and strengthened, the struggle and wrestling forced me to deconstruct my faith and start the construction process back to my first love. Jesus has not changed, He is the same yesterday, today and forever. He’s not afraid of my struggle and insecurities, He’s right there…in life and in death.

I’ll never forget the moment I got the phone call about my dad’s passing. His death was expected and we had gathered with him for months just about everyday thinking it was the end. We actually joked about the fact that we had said our “good byes” numerous times, my poor dad was probably tired of hearing our “It’s ok to let go” speech. He had a fabulous sense of humor and I think that’s what I miss the most.

Those days we watched my dad slowly and painfully lose his battle with ALS were long and terrible, they were gut wrenching. But I have learned many lessons, I have grown in my relationship with my God and my family and the brave friends that stood beside our family when we could barely function. Most of all I learned that Jesus is enough.

My dad knew that Jesus was enough. He served him faithfully even to the end. I know it wasn’t easy for him, I know that he wanted to be strong for us. I also know that he chose God even when he may not have felt like it – the end of his life was heartbreaking. It just was. You can’t sugar coat the ugliness of disease and isolation of death. He wasn’t able to speak, but I know he would have proclaimed that Jesus is enough. I know this was not what he wanted the end of his life to look like, I’m sure he had disappointments. There were tears and there were times of uncertainty but… Jesus is enough.

If you are struggling with grief, if you are experiencing a terrible life altering circumstance please know that it’s ok. The struggle is ok. You will grow in the struggle. You will grow in the devastation. You will have questions and will struggle with your faith. Your faith will be strengthened. Please don’t feel guilty but know that God loves you and most importantly that Jesus is enough.

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ELOHIM

Elohim is a hebrew word for God, it means mighty one, creator of the universe.  As we have started a new year, I’ve been so focused on the holiness and power of God.  I love that just as we are starting a new year on our calendar, the Bible starts with Genesis and the story of the creation of the world.  Genesis 1 is a powerful account of God making our universe, our planet, our entire world.  That’s pretty amazing, I often take for granted the absolute power of Elohim, our Creator, the maker of the earth.  Elohim stands above all others, He’s the picture of perfect love, wrath, justice and complete sovereignty.  He has no equal.

Do we adequately fear God?  Our culture is consumed with love for ourselves and our comfort, acceptance of any philosophy and doing what makes us happy, trying to be constantly politically correct.  God is none of those things.

I love how C.S. Lewis illustrates God’s power through the character of Aslan in The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe.  When Mr. Beaver tells Susan that Aslan is a great lion, she seems surprised and seemingly intimidated.  She expresses that she is nervous about meeting a lion and asks if Aslan is safe.  I love Mr. Beaver’s response: “Safe? Who said anything about safe? Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good.  He’s the King.”

To be a just God, He must be good.  He must be a God of Love but He must also be a God of wrath.  Administration of perfect justice requires both.  It defines and separates right from wrong. I often find comfort in the goodness of God but probably don’t focus on the absolute holiness of God enough.  Our God, the maker of heaven and earth (Elohim) needs nothing from us, but because of His goodness and love for us, desires to have a relationship with us.

I am learning to respect the holiness of God, to have a healthy fear of Elohim and His power.  I am also falling more in love with my creator and desiring to be closer to Him in my day to day routine.

The fact that God, in His ultimate wisdom and compassion for His children, sent His Son to die for us so that we could experience eternal joy is absolutely mind blowing.  Cling to God and His love for you.  Respect the holiness and wrath of our sovereign maker, develop a healthy fear and reverence for Elohim.  Draw near to Him.  My prayer for this new year is that I would recognize God’s holiness and serve Him because He is perfect love.

…and because He is good.

Psalm 96:12-13

12 Let the fields be jubilant, and everything in them;
    let all the trees of the forest sing for joy.
13 Let all creation rejoice before the Lord, for he comes,
    he comes to judge the earth.
He will judge the world in righteousness
    and the peoples in his faithfulness.

 

John 1:1-5

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was with God in the beginning. 3 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.

Romans 2:3-5

So when you, a mere human being, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God’s judgment? Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, forbearance and patience, not realizing that God’s kindness is intended to lead you to repentance?

But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God’s wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Let It Be…Mary’s Assignment from God

Obedience when it doesn’t make sense

Luke 1:26-38:

Christ’s Birth Announced to Mary

26 Now in the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent by God to a city of Galilee named Nazareth, 27 to a virgin betrothed to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David. The virgin’s name was Mary. 28 And having come in, the angel said to her, “Rejoice, highly favored one, the Lord is with you; blessed are you among women!”

29 But when she saw him, she was troubled at his saying, and considered what manner of greeting this was. 30 Then the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. 31 And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bring forth a Son, and shall call His name Jesus. 32 He will be great, and will be called the Son of the Highest; and the Lord God will give Him the throne of His father David. 33 And He will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and of His kingdom there will be no end.”

34 Then Mary said to the angel, “How can this be, since I do not know a man?”

35 And the angel answered and said to her, The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Highest will overshadow you; therefore, also, that Holy One who is to be born will be called the Son of God. 36 Now indeed, Elizabeth your relative has also conceived a son in her old age; and this is now the sixth month for her who was called barren. 37 For with God nothing will be impossible.”

38 Then Mary said, “Behold the maidservant of the Lord! Let it be to me according to your word.” And the angel departed from her.

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What could have possibly been going through Mary’s mind during such an unplanned interruption by an angel with a very non conventional holy birth announcement? First off, the Bible tells us she was “troubled”. As we read the text, it also goes on to tell us that Mary’s final response in verse 38 is: “Behold the maidservant of the Lord! Let it be to me according to your ‘word’”.

This story is amazing to me, how can in just 12 short verses we see Mary go from “troubled” to being seemingly fine with this whole scenario. Who was Mary? This very young lady was ready to jump into this new adventure with both feet, with complete obedience and trust. The Bible doesn’t tell us much about Mary. The Angel Gabriel uses phrases like “Highly favored one,” “the Lord is with you” and “Blessed are you among women”. But why? What is special about Mary? What it does tell us is that she is a virgin betrothed to marry Joseph and she lived in Nazareth. That is really not much information. It doesn’t say anything of her coming from a wealthy family, being of royal decent, wise beyond her years, beautiful in appearance…what we do know of her is relatively underwhelming. But God, in His divine wisdom, met this precious young girl right where she was and had a plan for her life.

This is encouraging.

It is encouraging because I don’t have earthly riches, as far as I know there is no royalty in my family heritage, I went to Bible College for a bit but I’m certainly no theologian. It encourages me because Jesus died on a cross to meet me right where I am, no strings attached. He not only died for me and granted me access to the Father and Eternal life in Heaven but has entrusted me to do His will while here on earth.

I have to pause when I think of this virgin teenage Mary and her willingness to be obedient to her God that sent His angel with, in my opinion, an overwhelming calling. A calling to give birth to the Son of God. A calling to love and to nurture Him, to kiss his boo boos, to patiently instruct and correct Him at times. To watch Him grow into a man and perform miracles, to spread a message of hope and forgiveness to all people. And finally to watch her beautiful baby boy be tortured then nailed to a cross while bearing the sin of all mankind as he slowly slipped into eternity in front of her eyes. I don’t know that there is anyone worthy or could have ever been ready for such a task. There wasn’t anything extravagant about Mary’s background, but she was willing and obedient to trust that God knew what He was doing.

If our young ordinary friend Mary can say, “Yes” to this Heavenly calling in 12 short verses, I can certainly say, “Yes” to the calling Christ has set before me in my journey. I can certainly trust that He knows what He is doing and absolutely have confidence that my future is secure in Him. I feel certain that Mary wept many tears and faced unimaginable obstacles along her journey that only she could traverse, yet she was still obedient and stayed the course. Are we willing to be servants of the Most High and just as Mary declared: “Let it be,” as we start this new year?

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One Day at a Time…Part 3 (Living with ALS)

WHAT ALS CANNOT DO…

The following is an email my dad sent out in January of 2015.  This would have been right in the middle of his ALS journey.  He underwent a very invasive surgery a couple months prior to this email to insert a trachea tube in his throat.  He was in the hospital for about three weeks following that procedure with tremendous difficulty adapting to it, yet he maintained a thankful and tender attitude toward God.  If  you are facing difficult circumstances, please read the following and let God speak to your heart as you enter this Christmas season…

Greetings to all of you.  My prayer is that you had a wonderful Christmas and a Happy and Blessed New Year.  God is faithful and His mercy and love are new every morning.

Recently my brother-in-law, Tom, who is battling lung cancer, gave me a saying that I thought was very good.  It’s title was “What Cancer Cannot Do.”  In my case I would like to substitute the word cancer and replace it with ALS.  You can do the same thing with what you are struggling with.

WHAT ALS CANNOT DO…

ALS cannot cripple love

ALS cannot shatter hope

ALS cannot corrode faith

ALS cannot destroy peace

ALS cannot kill friendship

ALS cannot suppress memories

ALS cannot silence courage

ALS cannot steal eternal life

ALS cannot conquer the spirit

Like I say, you can substitute any sickness or struggle you are going through.

In October, I had a trachea tube installed.  It’s purpose is to connect to a ventilator while I am sleeping at night.  The trachea tube was a real challenge for the first eight weeks, but now I have adapted fairly well.  I do rest better with the vent at night and wake up more refreshed.  Vickie and I continue to keep our eyes on Jesus and walk day by day with Him.

“His delight is not in the strength of the horse, nor His pleasure in the legs of a man, but the Lord takes pleasure in those who fear him, in those who hope in His steadfast love.”  Psalm 147:10-11

We are not going to let ALS rob us of our peace and hope.  Thank you so much for your prayers and support.  It really means a lot t us knowing you are praying.  God is faithful.

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One Day at a Time…Part 2 (Living with ALS)

TERMINAL

The following is part 2 of “One Day at a Time”. It is one of my dad’s letters upon getting the confirmation that he was indeed diagnosed with ALS. Although he wasn’t speaking well at this point (he would later lose his speech altogether), he was able to write. As his journey with ALS was just beginning, these were his thoughts. He would go on to endure 6 more years of agony but still never wavered from an attitude of thankfulness. These are all his words, they bring me such comfort even now as I can rejoice that he will be celebrating his first Christmas with Jesus in heaven. This is what he wanted all of us, his family and friends, to understand and I am so grateful to have these precious words from him…

On July 2012 my wife received a call from the Hampton VA Medial Center with some words that no one wants to hear. The health official said, “I am sorry to inform you that your husband has ALS (Lou Gehrig’s Disease).”

It was really not a total shock to us because for eighteen months they had been testing me and the handwriting was on the wall. I am the fifth person in my family to have ALS. When it comes to treating ALS, all the doctors can say is “I’m sorry,” and they informed us that there is no further treatment and no cure…this disease is terminal.

As a Christian, I thought about the word terminal and began to think about what that means here on earth. Yes, we will all die someday a physical death. But for the Christian, the word “terminal” does not apply.

Jesus said to Martha in John 11:25-27, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?”

Martha answered Jesus, “Yes, Lord; I believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God, who is coming into the world.”

This is good news for all of us! You may be a picture of health but no one can live forever in our earthly bodies. So those who are in Christ will live forever and the word “terminal” has no affect. In 1972 I received Christ as my Savior and was taken from darkness into His marvelous light. Be of good cheer! Death has lost its sting and we will live forever with Him!

Vickie and I again say thanks for all the support, encouraging words and prayers for our family. We find strength in God to live each day and live it to the fullest.

Gary Tingwald

Just a Note: What is the definition of a good day? Here is my definition: Knowing that God is there every moment and I can breathe. That is a good day.

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